For months now I have been trying to piece together and understand the background to my mental health challenges. It’s hard to admit you have mental health issues. This is the first time I have used the phrase “mental health” in fact. Until now I’ve used more socially agreeable terms like “burnout” and “stressed” but the fact of the matter is that the past 10 or so years have been hard work. You can read my musings and stories in this blog so no more analysis here. The point being that it’s taken me a long time to understand myself and it has involved accepting some pretty hard home truths. I also seem to learn more when things are tough. I guess it’s because it’s important to understand why things fall out the way they do if that makes sense. 

It’s easy to blame others for the failings in your life. I nearly fell into that trap. Much easier to say oh poor me, my awful health luck, my marriage blah blah blah. but you know that nothing is down to one person. And everything is down to how you deal with what actually happens to you.

I think that the real test is what do you do after you realise that something is broken. Do you take responsibility? do you own that and do what is necessary to fix it? And sometimes fixing it is not the right answer. Sometimes the right answer is the hardest path.

 the important thing is to be honest with yourself. What is right for you? What is right for the other people that you love in your life?