Stitch This

I stay up late at night:
I somehow need to feel the dark.
To have a space to bubble into,
Rise and grow and stretch myself.

But I am also lonely.
Late at night is a solo shift.
I should be being social, chatty.
But I shrink away from that.

A conundrum lies before me,
How to stretch without that snap?
How to be alone not lonely?
How to grasp the dark itself?

Is there ever one full answer
I think not as no one has
Managed to find perfect balance.
I roll over, close eyes and hold on.